Bad Beat

8:22 am....Tues morning...am getting killed in poker tournaments...getting called by very weak hands who are drawing out on me...last night I pushed all in pre flop with JJ...there was 2,500 in the pot when it came to me....I pushed for 8,500 more...got called by a 5,6 off who barely had me covered and watched in horror as flop of 4,4,2 hit and the 3 came on the turn giving the idiot caller an inside straight...I think it is these horrendous bad beats that has really impacted my game....I have strayed from my game making very poor calls myself..strayed from the basics of the game that served me so well when playing online...yes I have some decent cashes recently, but there was a time I could make final table after final table online....cashing almost nightly.... (caution: apparent non sequitir ahead) I once had a tour of the Don Best Sports Services, Inc. offices in Las Vegas....impressive operation...I will never forget walking out and seeing a car in the parking lot....license plate said BAD BEAT....wonder if that personalized plate is available in Ca....and (at the risk of being totally redundant) the worst part of getting a series of bad beats is that affects your decision making....it destroys science...destroys logic...destroys focus and interferes with solid play....you sometimes think cards don't matter...its all a fucking lottery....night before last, I got all my money in preflop...huge pot in the middle of the tournament, whoever wins the pot takes over chip lead....anyway, I get my money in with 10,10 vs two opponents who hold A, 10 suited and 5,5...flop comes 10, 5, 3 rainbow (all different suits)...A blank K comes on the turn....I'm a 97.7% favorite to take over the chip lead....yeah, you guessed it...the last 5 comes on the river so my opponent makes quads to beat me....BAD BEAT....the problem with being a 41:1 favorite is you only win 41 out of 42 hands...you lose a hand somewhere along the way...I can live with that....I just want to know why I have to lose when all the chips are in the pot and I'm about to become chip leader...BAD BEAT....the only thing I can say is that I have become more stoic, taking the bad beats in stride....I do remember about 3 years ago...taking a bad beat like that and punching a hole in my door...of course I wasn't contented with the hole in the door...so I got in a full-fledged fight with my door...punching untill the door was destroyed...it was at the moment I realized the door might have gotten the best of thing as I had blood all over my hands and some searing pain.....doors put a better fight than you might think...kind of a Tai Chi thing...using yr own force against you....dont fight doors...just pillows, no one seems to get hurt...BAD BEAT....today is another day...maybe it will go my way today...